I Am FREE

Hey lovelies,

This morning I woke up feeling a deep sense of excitement. I was blessed with a couple of beautiful emails from people who read this blog and feel inspired to create change in their own lives. Knowing that sharing my journey inspires others reinforces that I am on the right path.

From the plethora of lewd, rude, and crude comments I get on social media, it is clear that not everyone truly gets the intention of my blog and my photos. Sometimes I’m not even sure I fully grasp why I am the way I am or why I do what I do and share the way I do.

I suppose this journey began with my own path to sensual transformation. I began my childhood as a victim. I continued to be a victim throughout my teens and even into my very early twenties.

At some point, I decided to reclaim my sexuality. I dove in to me on many levels, but I was still playing the role I thought I should. I was a selfless and devoted daughter, mother, and wife. That path was filled with beauty, but last year I came to a shocking realisation. I had what I call an “eat, pray, love moment“. In fact, I actually read a quote by Elizabeth Gilbert, the author of Eat, Pray, Love that inspired me to create change in my life:

Moreover, I have boundary issues with men. Or maybe that’s not fair to say. To have issues with boundaries, one must have boundaries in the first place, right? But I disappear into the person I love.

I am the permeable membrane. If I love you, you can have everything. You can have my time, my devotion, my ass, my money, my family, my dog, my dog’s money, my
dog’s time—everything…

I will give you the sun and the rain, and if they are not available, I will give you a sun check and a rain check. I will give you all this and more, until I get so exhausted and depleted that the only way I can recover my energy is by becoming infatuated with someone else.

In essence, Elizabeth is talking about unconditionally loving her man. I am a firm believer in unconditional love. For me, during the beautiful years I spent married to my husband, I loved fiercely and unconditionally. I was committed, loyal, and I as truly ALL IN.

Then something happened and everything changed in the blink of an eye. So here I am; it is 2018 and I am a single woman for the first time in over two decades. I am discovering aspects of my being that I had no idea existed. I feel a sense of freedom I have never felt before and it is truly exciting.

I hope you are having a beautiful day…

From my heart to yours,

Joy

 

28 comments

  1. Ralph Odierna says:

    I do believe in unconditionally love, with that comes unlimited spectrum of willingness to be hurt. Unconditional love means being raw, willing to accept all that comes your way, unlimited trust… If your partner is in the same place nothing will ever break that bond and you can create universes, you become God like in love. Joy, you may be surprised where that great love is, it’s there… just believe

  2. Grace Madrona says:

    Open into the freedom. Dive deep into the excitment. Take this moment with yourself.
    I dare you.

  3. Ralph Odierna says:

    It’s your vulnerability coupled with your honesty that makes every photo NOT provocative but rather EVOCATIVE

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